Why marriage?

I have wondered for over a decade why Loki wanted us to get married.
He came into my life in December 2011, via dreams. In February 2012 He told me in dreams three nights in a row that He wanted us to get married, and mentioned in August. I was already in love with Him so I agreed. I did my preparations for a wedding ceremony. I bought jewelry and a dress, a heart shaped box with room for three tea candles, and a small, heart shaped box to store his wedding ring in on His altar. I ordered matching claddagh wedding rings. I wrote my wedding oath. I was finished by early June. Loki asked me then in hypnogogia (that deep trance like state between sleeping and waking) if we could be married in June. We agreed on Saturday 25th June.
On the wedding day I bought cake and made a meal, which I shared with Him. I knelt in front of His altar, lit three candles and said my three-part oath to Him. He only made one comment: “You can cook!”

I seem to be the odd one out in the godspouse community. My marriage has never been romantic or sexual.
I wanted to have sex with Loki, but it never happened, not even in dreams. After I hit menopause six years ago, I became asexual and sex repulsed, so it didn’t matter anymore.

I was only able to communicate with Loki in hypnogogia during our first year together. He also often visited me in my dreams.
In late November 2012 I had a psychotic breakdown caused by extreme sleep deprivation. I was put on antipsychotics. I’m still on two types of antipsychotics. I haven’t been able to experience hypnogogia after I was put on the meds. After 2011, Loki only visited me in my dreams a couple of times a year.
I had auditory hallucinations while I was psychotic.I still hear a voice in my head that is not Loki, when I don’t have an external focus.
I think the antipsychotics are blocking my medium abilities.

Loki has never asked anything of me. I’ve never worked with Him. I had no idea why He wanted us to get married.
Late last year I talked to a Lokean godspouse, Nicole. She has a godphone and do divinations. I asked her if she could ask Loki why He wanted to marry me, and what He wanted with me. She said that He wanted to marry me because He loves me, and that all He wants of me is for me to be happy.
She also mentioned that deities sometimes marry mortals to change their wyrd. I asked her if that was the case with me, and she said that Loki wanted to marry me to protect me form deities and spirits who would otherwise demand I work for them. He wanted me to be able to choose who I worked for, to have free will. That protection seems superfluous, since I no longer can hear deities or spirits.
I asked her to ask Loki if He could visit my dreams a bit more, and she said that He said He would try. He did visit my dreams four times in 2021, which I’m grateful for.

It’s a strange marriage. It’s so distant, with so few dream visits and no godphone. I’m still very fond of Loki, and I give Him offerings once a week. I’m no longer in love with Him, though.

Do you know of any other god- or spiritspouse with an asexual marriage?

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Cultic Worship to Loki

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Did you know we have possible evidence of cultic worship to Loki from antiquity?

Al-Tartuschi (also known as Ibrahim ibn Yaqub) hailed from the Cordoba Caliphate (specifically the Al-Andalus area from the Iberian peninsula), and wrote of his travels abroad in Europe in 961 – 962 CE. He records seeing worship connected to the Sirius star in Hedeby, Denmark.

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Loki’s Torch Volume 3 is out

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Loki Variants

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One of the trailers for the upcoming Marvel Lokiseries features the intriguing phrase, “Loki variant.” Of course, if there’s one variant, there will be others and I’m not just refering to the series. In fact, Loki “variants” already exist in Norse lore. As a shapeshifter, he (she/they/ze…) appears in the stories as a mare (soon to be pregnant), a salmon, a fly, and more.

Dagulf Loptson, author of Playing With Fire: An Exploration of Loki Laufeyjarson (Asphodel Press, 2014) and Loki: Trickster and Transformer (Pagan Portals, 2020), writes that Loki is also known by various “indirect bynames” for his various forms and functions (Playing, p.20). Here are just a few of these bynames, known as “heiti” or “kennings”:

Lóðurr (Lodur, Lodurr): who in the poem, Völuspá, helps to animate two humans who were formerly ash and elm trees. Loptson says you’ll find this story…

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Say the Names of our Gods and Goddesses

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Recently in an online group I am in, there was a post which greatly annoyed me because it hit on one of my biggest pet peeves: a tendency in the interfaith community and some parts of the pagan community to use vague terms in prayers, offerings, or when talking about our sacred powers: Oh Spirit, Great Lady, Oh Goddess.

The offending post in this case:

"The Owl, symbol of the Goddess, represents perfect wisdom. Owls have the ability to see in the dark and fly noiselessly through the skies. They bring messages through dreams. The Owl is the bird of mystical wisdom and ancient knowledge of the powers of the moon."

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To which I responded:

Which Goddess? People died in worship of their Gods and Goddesses. Please use the deities’ names. Otherwise you are complicit in continuing the destruction of what Christianity wrought to the pre-Christian religions of the world.

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LokiFest 2020, Online and Free

Yes, it’s that time of year again! The star Lokabrenna, otherwise known as Sirius, will be rising in August. And we Lokeans will be hanging out on Zoom for five days, doing what Lokeans do. (And doing it very well, I might add.)

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