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I feel like I’m floundering in a permanent state of confusion. After my major breakdown last November, I feel like I have broken into many pieces, and that some have been lost.  I don’t know who I am any more. … Continue reading

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Of the types/tradition of magick I’ve read about, Chaos or Freestyle magick, visual/sigil magick and the Feri tradition are what appeals to me. The problems with the Feri tradition is that it comes with it’s own pantheon of gods. I … Continue reading

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I don’t know…

So, Loki seemed to get furious with me on Saturday, because I asked Him about something I wanted to know were true or false about that dramatic first life. You know, the life both the Big Block and the Saboteur … Continue reading

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I’ve learned that it’s the Saboteur who has told me about my past life, not Loki. Loki was not happy about the Saboteur telling me anything about this past life in which it had been created. Loki said that the … Continue reading

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More confusion

(Big Block workings, week 12/13) On the Sunday after I had met Freyr in a dream for the first time (that I know of), Loki pulled a really sneaky one on me. After a work session, I heard Him say: … Continue reading

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