There were a lot of confusing issues back in 2012. Things I never got any explanations for or answers to, since Loki stopped talking to me, in summer of 2012, and I stopped asking Lokean spiritworkers to talk to Him for me.
I have been patient; I have lived with insecurity and confusion for almost three years.
I finally decided to try and get some answers via a friend who works with Loki and who is a shaman.
I wrote her a long email, explaining the issues I have questions on.
I had no idea mentally revisiting the past could be so triggering.
I feel very anxious now, and my brain-weasels are saying:”That was a really bad move, asking all those questions of Loki. You will get unpleasant answers. Maybe He doesn’t even want you as His wife any more. Maybe He even doesn’t want you, at all.”