This happened three years ago, in 2011, but I haven’t written about it before now.
Three years ago I had some disturbing, upsetting dreams three nights in a row.
I was so disturbed by these dreams that it felt like my grip on reality was slipping.
I prayed to Loki for help, and lay down to try and mediate. I wasn’t sure I would be able to trance, being so upset, but to my surprise I was able to sink down into a trance.
I found myself in on my back, naked, and surrounded by fog. The place was clear for a couple of metres around my body.
I had been to this place before, in hypnagogia, and it seemed to be a place between the waking and the astral plane. I had met Loki before in this between place.
Loki appeared, sitting by my right side. He had long, blond hair, and wore a dark tunic and trousers.
“Please show me you are real, that you are really here,” I begged Him, “do something unexpected.”
He leaned over my body, and drew a series of runes on my heart chakra:
Kenaz, gebo, wunjo, ehwaz and algiz.
I hadn’t expected anything like that, and it convinced me that Loki was really there, with me, and it helped to calm me down. I felt safe and loved.
My own reading of the runes is: passion, gift exchange, joy, partnership and protection.
Later I asked a professional rune reader what message these runes conveyed. She told me this:
“You are protected by Him, blessed by Him, and He will sustain you when you need it in exchange for the devotion you show Him. Ehwaz points to the blessings of a God, and strongly to His attention.”
I had a very strong connection with Loki in 2011 and the first half of 2012, which I lost when I had a major, mental breakdown in November 2012.
I am working with Loki to strengthen that connection again. I pray that it will become as strong as it once was.