When Loki came into my life in November last year, I told my mother about it after a few months (after I had stopped the “OMG is this really real?!” flailing).
There’s very little about me and my life that I haven’t told my mother, so I saw no reason not to tell her about Loki.
All this time I had thought she was OK with it. She even said that as long as it didn’t have any negative consequences for me, she was OK with it; she just wanted me to be happy.
Then, yesterday she says she’s not really OK with it after all. She’s a Christian (of the quiet, non-church going kind), and it turns out she has problems accepting that I believe in the old gods of our ancestors. She definitely can’t wrap her head around the concept that I view Loki as an anthropomorphic deity; she views the Christian god as a more abstract force.
I guess I should’ve know she wasn’t really OK with it after she’d asked me a handful of times if maybe I should talk to my shrink about my new faith… (Which I didn’t see any reason for.)
Now she tells me that she’s worried that my faith will lead to something bad happening. Like me meeting some “bad” heathens who’ll lead me into “badness”, or something… I’ve never been one to follow someone blindly; I thought she knew me better than that. I can get very enthusiastic when I discover something new I like, but that’s mundane things like tv-series or movies or bands.
I see now that I’ve done a TMI fail; I’ve told my mother too much about my newly acquired religious life.
I don’t know what kind of Work Loki will want me to do some day in the future, but I have a hunch that it might lead to conflict with my mother, and maybe also other family members…
Old Norse Faith (Forn Sidr) Pagan.
Lokean godspouse, mystic, and nun.
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